All right, so I've suddenly gone AWOL now that I started this...

So I started radiation as my last gross part of having cancer. It involves me having my head bolted to an awkward table, my face covered in a mask that smells like butt, and having random doctors seeing me topless. The last isn't too bad when I get a really hot male doctor, but you know what I mean. I've pretty much been suffering the expected side effects, but having a sore throat that makes it damn near impossible to swallow anything or eat is not what I had in mind. To quote one of my girls who has been at my side quite often, "You know it's bad when you can't eat a cheeseburger." Enough said. I actually would rather watch Fox News for 3 weeks straight than go through this. So I've probably dropped weight, and I am going nuts because it hurts just to drink water. The pain medicines don't seem to be doing the trick, and I always feel like I'm trying to chase cheap alcohol whenever I take it. Plus, I'm in the midst of research papers and finals. Typical college stuff, as you may know. So for all of you who care to know, that's what my last few weeks have consisted of, and now I'm trying to get back in the saddle.

So December 11 is my happy day, because it means I officially enter remission, all of this crap is over with (although I still will have after effects), and Hanukkah begins. Believe me, the thought of getting Call Of Duty, eating delicious latkes, and hanging out with my friends is much higher on my priority list than feeling like I have a nasty case of strep. I have, however, survived from my docs, epic parents, and amazing friends. So I can't ask for anything more but to feel better already! Really, if God exists, he's a douche, because this has totally messed up my last year of teenage life. I should be doing stupid things, focusing on college, and creating myself. Haven't exactly been able to accomplish that when I spend hours in the hospital and passing out on the couch. Life needs a DVR button where you can just delete stuff if you realize you don't want it, or already seen it. If this has been invented already, please feel free to give me the inside scoop.